“Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.'”
I hear the Lord inviting me into more. I hear Him telling me not to stay where I am or where I have been, but to go further with Him. He wants to make me more like Him.
I find it difficult to journey further with the Lord after a moment of great breakthrough. It’s difficult to ascend another mountain when you just got down from one. It’s at this moment that it is easy to coast, to settle, to stay comfortable.
Recently, I remember telling one of my mentors that all my life I’ve only ever dreamt of becoming a wife and a mom. I told her this as I was looking at my new, first-born son. She looked at me and said, “Well, it looks like now you need a new dream.”
For me, it feels hard to dream again when a long awaited dream has just come to pass. I spent so much time praying for, hoping for, and believing for the privilege to become a wife and a mom. I, actually, remember as a young girl getting asked the question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” The other kids would often reply by saying they wanted to be an astronaut, a teacher, a doctor, a firefighter, the president, etc. From a very young age, I remember replying to this question with, “I want to be a wife and a mommy when I grow up!”
Now that my childhood dream has become a reality, I hear these words ring in my ears, “I need a new dream.” This is not to say that my roles as a wife and mom are unimportant. I truly believe they are my greatest roles this side of Heaven.
But I must recognize that safety and comfort will always be a temptation for the one who wants to follow after Jesus with all that is within them.