"...to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair..."
There was a time in my life when I felt unfulfilled. This unfulfillment led me into a season of brokenness. I would leave church feeling empty, alone, and uncertain; even after reading my bible, praying, or listening to a sermon. I was aware of who the Lord was; yet, I lacked a key ingredient; intimacy. I surrounded myself with a certain crowd and indulged in activities that only gave me temporary fixes. I soon learned that those momentary pleasures left me in an even worse state.
At this moment, I realized that what I was missing couldn't be found in friendships, careers, money, cars, or appearances. Gheesh, I felt as if the Lord was using the Holy Spirit to break the delusion that I was living my best life. I didn’t realize the Lord was only using my brokenness as an entry way into my heart. My “best life” wasn't ending, but beginning.
True intimacy began the moment I learned to empty myself and surrender my all to the One whom my soul was longing for in the first place.